if you're ever worried, if you're all alone

I had the best three-hour long dinner last night, and it gives me the strength to keep muddling through.

Muddling, I am.

And I try my best. Try to be confident. Try not to panic. Try to relax.

Muddle, muddle, muddle.

Persist.

That's all I can do.

(I can also listen to Sam Cooke and the Temptations. That helps.)

practice

I watched this today:



And practiced voicing it. It's a good story.

sharon brought a giant bowl of ham to the meeting

what does it mean if the sign is living in your backyard now?

So the ghost-dog that was howling at Kismet, the one Emily told me was a sign is living in our backyard, temporarily. Laura is taking care of him because Laura takes care of strays. That's how she got Roxanne.

Anyway. This scares me because that ghost-dog was definitely a sign. I saw it. I felt it. He looked right at me and howled and I could see him in the moonlight and it was freaky. And then he should have disappeared like signs are supposed to, ghost-like. But he's still in the backyard.

That's totally messed up and crazy. What does it mean?

It definitely means something.

Blerg. I'll get to the bottom of it.

my new favorite song

This Party Just Took a Turn for the Douche
by Garfunkel and Oates
(captioned for your pleasure)



This song cracks me up. And these two girls are totally adorable. They have a song about gay marriage/duck sex which is pretty hilarious. Here is their website: garfunkelandoates.com.

I think I might be in love with them.

p.s. Favorite line: "Gonna pop my collar like Limbaugh pops oxy."

afternoontimes

silliness (god bless you, funny or die)

First, watch this ridiculous ad (it has captions, so does the second one):



It's afwul, and might make you mad.

Now, watch this:



It will make it all better. It's got a couple good cameos.

But the ad, the allegedly "legitimate" ad, is so very ridiculous, and it is typical majority-oppressor tactics to pretend that their loss of undeserved privilege is a violation of their rights. Republicans, especially Pat Buchanan (who randomly likes to defend Hitler for some insane reason), love to try and pull that shit. "Who is looking out for the poor white people? They built this country (ahem, on the backs of slaves, let's not forget that) and now minorities are trying to level the playing field, and then whatever will we do when our race alone no longer guarantees our success?"

It's silly. Rachel Maddow called Buchanan out on her show, which is one of her favorite pastimes. She made him look like an utter, utter fool, which he undoubtedly is. It was beautiful.

funtimes, asltimes

I had such a wonderful time last night. We went to Cafe Ole for delicious dinner and drinks, and Mom and Laura got their sign names, and then Emily taught them some really important signs (the dirty ones) and it was just great and I drank a few beers and a giant shot of Patrón. We had such a good time. It was great learning and playing and I got to practice voicing for Emily a tiny bit.

Mostly we just laughed raucously. And teased each other and said highly inappropriate things, which is just our way. It is so lovely to have a family such as this.

My whole little midtown family. Keeping it real on the North(ish) side.

Family dinners are the best. I love and cherish them for the treasure they are. Jewels.

I love so much that little sis and Krys are just a block away from me, and Em is just a quick zip across the river.

It strengthens me to feel everyone so close. And to know you are just right there.

I love you all more than you will ever know. More than words can say.

And now I have to go to work.

hell yeah

ani

life is a b movie
it's stupid and it's strange
a directionless story
and the dialogue is lame
but in the he said she said
sometimes there's some poetry
if you turn your back long enough
and let it happen naturally
oh, yeah
hell yeah

i got a face like a limp handshake
hair like an accident scene
i've been waking up slowly
savoring the same old dream
and somewhere between
the folds of your memory
i was sleeping soundly
oh, yeah
hell yeah

'cause i like you
but i know you don't know it
i like you so much,
i talk to everyone but you
and i wonder
what you would think of this little number
i wonder
what you would say if you knew

if you don't ask the right questions
every answer feels wrong
i was a terrible waitress
so i started to write songs
and i don't know how i feel
but i wonder if you feel like me
do you ever get wrapped up
in the folds of my memory
oh, yeah
hell, yeah

'cause i like you
but i know you don't know it
i like you so much
i talk to everyone but you
and i wonder
what you would think of this little number
yeah i wonder
what you would say if you knew

there's a river of people
that runs past my eyes
and it's beautiful enough
just to watch it go by
but the trouble with water is
she'll always leave you for gravity
i never even told you
i had a crush on you or anything
oh, yeah
hell yeah

life is a b movie
it's stupid and it's strange
a directionless story
and the dialogue is lame
but in the he said she said
sometimes there's some poetry
if you turn your back long enough
and let it happen naturally
oh, yeah
hell yeah

internet captioning and HR 3101

It's in ASL, with subtitles.