clusterfucked

So. Guess who has too many credit hours to qualify for financial aid. Yeah. Great, right? I can fill out an appeal, which I am going to do. But. My experience with appeals of any sort is that they are mostly pointless. Whatever though. Assholes. I don't really care. I'll work it out.

I just filed my taxes (for free!) though, and that's good. I'm getting about $500 back which, for me, is a lot. I can use it to pay my tuition since it looks like I may be completely ineligible for financial aid. Those stupid motherfuckers. Nice that it only took me eight months to find that out.

I might be able to get $400 from my tribe. God I hope that pans out. I need to mail the application and give Financial Aid that form they have to fill out (I hope they can at least do that right). That would leave me with $200 to pay myself and that is easy.

I fucking hate the school, as an entity. Those fat white Administrator shitheads can take their core values and choke on them. Cocksuckers. President Fuckface or whatever his name is. It's fucking ridiculous. They really and truly don't care about anything but money. They run the place like a fucking business. Except they even fail at that because businesses are efficient.

Whatever. Anyway, fuck them.

I've been angry lately. Like, really angry. I don't know where it's coming from. I mean, I've always been angry, but it seems like recently it's been hitting me in waves. Maybe it is because there are so many things to be angry about. Maybe it's the hormones.

Maybe I need to read that Audre Lorde essay again. She was angry. Sexy angry. She fucking used it, though.

Sigh.

christianity rant

So people in my online class are saying things like "thank the Lord" and "God Bless," and I fucking hate that shit. How about we all keep our religious bullshit to ourselves, please. That shit has no place in class discussion, I don't think. Except inasmuch as Christianity is part of the discussion about culture. Beyond that, though, it is completely gross and unnecessary.

I don't give a shit that you love Jesus.

I don't love Jesus.

Let's tone down the godspeak, please.

I'm not quite sure why it bothers me so much, but it fucking does so I am writing about it. I'm just glad I'm not in a class like Krystal was in about something controversial like sexuality. I am quite sure it would activate my rage.