ocd sketchbook panic

I will relate this story because I believe honesty is my duty, and this is honestly silly.

I went to Zeigler to buy a sketchbook for class because I refuse to write on paper with lines. Notebooks are depressing. They remind me of high school and that makes me want to throw up. So I take notes in sketchbooks. I used to buy the hard-spined kind, but then I realized that the spiral bound ones are very sturdy and more practical because they take up less space during use.

Anyway, buying a sketchbook, they didn't really have the kind I wanted but I got one anyway for some reason. It was expensive. But for some reason I felt pressure to not walk out of that store empty-handed. Shortly after purchasing the sketchbook I decided it was the "wrong" kind and I wanted to get another. I justified the purchase of superfluous sketchbooks by gifting the first one to Dave.

So we went to to stupid Michael's after lamenting the fact that there are no really good art supply stores in Tulsa (Zeigler's selection is mediocre) and I bought to sketchbooks that were the kind I wanted and way, way too expensive. Then, the day after that I went to Barnes and Noble and found perfect sketchbooks for $7 each. They even have Japanese waves on the cover. I had to get them, of course.

And that is the story of how I have five sketchbooks. The ones from Michael's are going back. I have the receipt. I don't have the heart to try and return the one from Zeigler. So Dave will take it. And I will use the "right" sketchbooks, which will absolutely guarantee my success in all endeavors. Right? I thought that's how these things work.

I know how silly I am. Trust me, I do. I just accept it. Because sketchbooks is really about pretty intense anxiety about school. So if finding the just-right sketchbook helps me feel more confident, then whatever. I let myself buy them.

One needs to coddle oneself from time to time. Especially when one is about to take a considerable risk.

So it's all good. I take care of my shit. And I always keeps it real.